A thousand Splendid Suns

won 't let him.For Mammy, even in the end, even after everything went so terribly 
wrong and Kabul lay in ruins, Massoud was still the Lion of Panjshir. 
 
  Laila is not as forgiving- Massoud's violent end brings her no joy, but she remembers 
too well the neighborhoods razed under his watch, the bodies dragged from the rubble, 
the hands and feet of children discovered on rooftops or the high branch of some tree 
days after their funeral She remembers too clearly the look on Mammy's own face mo-
ments before the rocket slammed in and, much as she has tried to forget, Babi's headless 
torso landing nearby, the bridge tower printed on his T-shirt poking through thick fog 
and blood. 
  "There is going to be a funeral," Tariq is saying. "I'm sure of it. Probably in Rawalpin-
di. It'll be huge." 

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  Zalmai, who was almost asleep, is sitting up now, rubbing his eyes with balled fists. 
 
  Two days later, they are cleaning a room when they hear a commotion. Tariq drops the 
mop and hurries out. Laila tails him. 
 
  Thenoise is coming from the hotel lobby. There is a lounge area to the right of the re-
ception desk, with several chairs and two couches upholstered in beige suede. In the 
corner, facing the couches, is a television, and Sayeed, the concierge, and several guests 
are gathered in front of. 
 
  Laila and Tariq work their way in. 
 
  The TV is tuned to BBC. On the screen is a building, a tower, black smoke billowing 
from its top floors. Tariq says something to Sayeed and Sayeed is in midreply when a 
plane appears from the corner of the screen. It crashes into the adjacent tower, explo-
ding into a fireball that dwarfs any ball of fire that Laila has ever seen. A collective yelp 
rises from everyone in the lobby. 
 
  In less than two hours, both towers have collapsed 
  Soon all the TV stations are talking about Afghanistan and the Taliban and Osama bin 
Laden. 
 
* * * 
 
  "Did you hear what the Taliban said?" Tariq asks. "About bin Laden?" 
 
  Aziza is sitting across from him on the bed, considering the board. Tariq has taught her 
to play chess. She is frowning and tapping her lower lip now, mimicking the body lan-
guage her father assumes when he's deciding on a move. 
 
  Zalmai's cold is a little better. He is asleep, and Laila is rubbing Vicks on his chest. 
  "I heard," she says. 
 
  The Taliban have announced that they won't relinquish bin Laden because he is ameh-
man, a guest, who has found sanctuary in Afghanistan and it is against thePashiunwali 
code of ethics to turn over a guest. Tariq chuckles bitterly, and Laila hears in his chuck-
le that he is revolted by this distortion of an honorable Pashtun custom, this misrepre-
sentation of his people's ways. 
 
  A few days after the attacks, Laila and Tariq are in the hotel lobby again. On the TV 
screen, George W. Bush is speaking. There is a big American flag behind him. At one 
point, his voice wavers, and Laila thinks he is going to weep. 
  Sayeed, who speaks English, explains to them that Bush has just declared war. 
  "On whom?" says Tariq. 
  "On your country, to begin with." 
 
* * * 
 
  "It may not be such a bad thing," Tariq says. 

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  They have finished making love. He's lying beside her, his head on her chest, his arm 
draped over her belly. The first few times they tried, there was difficulty. Tariq was all 
apologies, Laila all reassurances. There are still difficulties, not physical now but logis-
tical. The shack they share with the children is small. The children sleep on cots below 
them and so there is little privacy. Most times, Laila and Tariq make love in silence, 
with controlled, muted passion, fully clothed beneath the blanket as a precaution against 
interruptions by the children. They are forever wary of the rustling sheets, the creaking 
bedsprings. But for Laila, being with Tariq is worth weathering these apprehensions. 
When they make love, Laila feels anchored, she feels sheltered. Her anxieties, that their 
life together is a temporary blessing, that soon it will come loose again in strips and tat-
ters, are allayed. Her fears of separation vanish. 
 
  "What do you mean?" she says now. 
 
  "What's going on back home. It may not be so bad in the end." 
 
  Back home, bombs are falling once again, this time American bombs-Laila has been 
watching images of the war every day on the television as she changes sheets and vacu-
ums. The Americans have armed the warlords once more, and enlisted the help of the 
Northern Alliance to drive out the Taliban and find bin Laden. 
  But it rankles Laila, what Tariq is saying. Shepushes his head roughly off her chest. 
 
  "Not so bad? People dying? Women, children, old people? Homes destroyed again? 
Not so bad?" 
 
  "Shh.You'll wake the children." 
 
  "How can you say that, Tariq?" she snaps. "After the so-called blunder in Karam? A 
hundred innocent people! You saw the bodies for yourself!" 
 
  "No," Tariq says. He props himself up on his elbow, looks down at Laila. "You misun-
derstand. What I meant was-" 
  "You wouldn't know," Laila says. She is aware that her voice is rising, that they are ha-
ving their first fight as husband and wife. "You left when the Mujahideen began figh-
ting, remember? I'm the one who stayed behind. Me. Iknow war.I lost my parents to 
war. Myparents, Tariq. And now to hear you say that war is not so bad?" 
 
  "I'm sorry, Laila. I'm sorry." He cups her face in his hands. "You're right. I'm sorry. 
Forgive me. What I meant was 
 
  that maybe there will be hope at the other end of this war, that maybe for the first time 
in a long time-" 
 
  "I don't want to talk about this anymore," Laila says, surprised at how she has lashed 
out at him. It's unfair, she knows, what she said to him-hadn't war taken his parents 
too?-and whatever flared in her is softening already. Tariq continues to speak gently, 
and, when he pulls her to him, she lets him. When he kisses her hand, then her brow, 
she lets him. She knows that he is probably right. She knows how his comment was in-
tended. Maybe thisis necessary. Maybe theremil be hope when Bush's bombs stop fal-

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ling. But she cannot bring herself to say it, not when what happened to Babi and 
Mammy is happening to someone now in Afghanistan, not when some unsuspecting girl 
or boy back home has just been orphaned by a rocket as she was. Laila cannot bring her-
self to say it. It's hard to rejoice. It seems hypocritical, perverse. 
 
  That night, Zalmai wakes up coughing. Before Laila can move, Tariq swings his legs 
over the side of the bed. He straps on his prosthesis and walks over to Zalmai, lifts him 
up into his arms. From the bed, Laila watches Tariq's shape moving back and forth in 
the darkness. She sees the outline of Zalmai's head on his shoulder, the knot of his 
hands at Tariq's neck, his small feet bouncing by Tariq's hip. 
 
  When Tariq comes back to bed, neither of them says anything. Laila reaches over and 
touches his face. Tariq's cheeks are wet.