Like yourself with everything you have (Daljanova Gulnaz Moyatdinovna )

Like yourself with everything you have
(Daljanova Gulnaz Moyatdinovna )

Life . Whether it is too short or too long , you are right. One may go to bed with thanks to God for giving another such happy day ,whilst others regret waking up again. We cannot rule any of them or say which is right. In fact , statement of life is differently imagined in every single person`s mind. For instance , it may be lovely people , well-paid job , beautiful house or may be just a dear cat or dog , one special room of hospital , a drop of water or a last leaf in a tree. How you describe it , you are used to seeing only that thing and you make it real . Life has taught me to think so .

As I was a child , life was a world of magic adventures. When I found women`s old shoes or bags in the garden of our old flat , I would say : “ It is something that I wore when I was bigger, then I took it away” or when I came across square bathroom window like crystals in the street , I would say to my friends : “ If we break it into pieces , then we will find diamonds.” After realizing all those are unreal , I have never laughed at myself. I mean , now I am lack of those cheerful feelings and dreams.
When you get older , the hope of reaching your all ambitions will start decreasing . Since , according to your potential , you will try to limit your challenges. For example , as I was studying for English at lyceum , my German language teacher suggested participating in Olympiad , however I did not want to risk and refused due to my unconfidence .The teacher prepared another student hard and they were able to take prize place. Meanwhile , undoubtedly , I said myself “If I had agreed…”. It was not jealousy , just one example I could not gain because of my limitations .
Of course , life does not include just failures and achievements , however , my mind had been working as a machine which considered life to be a competition : Once I could not take first place in the consecutive competition , I became ill and recovered . After some days , my mother was taken to hospital and stayed for a week. The time passed praying to God for saving my mother . Something crucial I noticed that every moment I was given to live with my parents , siblings in a cozy and little peaceful house was an endless happy life. As even in the poorest families , in the house of love , children are feeling exact meaning of life with everything they own , I have absolutely no right to regret . Hence , life is not the same for everyone and happiness has to be found. Because , hope is necessary for survival .
By the way , I really want to become a risk-taker person. I want to do whatever I desire , I want to say whatever I think even though others look at me strangely (like my childish years). By this way , either I will take a lesson or become successful one.
There may be so many people who are thinking like me in the world , I would like to convince them to like themselves everything they have instead of hating themselves something they do not have . Consequently , it may be impulsive that they will be able to find the main point of their lives . Undoubtedly , you need close people to support , however , even they do not have , you will have to look for your own spark . And one day , of course , you will breathe in your real life with real happiness.