Reclaim Your Heart

D
IE
 B
EFORE
 Y
OUR
 D
EATH
Tell me I can get lost
Tell me I can lose myself in your Presence
In the overwhelming moment of real submission
Tell me I can remain forever broken
In You
For You
With You.
Tell me I can remain here forever
Away, while still here.
Did not the Prophet 
say: “Die before your death”?
At first I thought maybe it was only a reminder
to remember our meeting with You.
But then I thought how I wish I could die before my death:
Have a soul that is no longer in this life—even while the
body must remain.
A heart that is freed from the shackles of dunya—even
while the legs must walk its streets.
Have a nafs that is in complete rest and satisfaction with
its’ Lord–even while the crumbling shell remains.

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A soul that is already there—even before it is there.
A soul detached.
A nafs mutmainah—in the truest and deepest and realest
sense (Quran 89:27)
For as the great scholar said, rahimahu Allah, “He who
does not enter the paradise of this life, will not enter the
paradise of the next.”

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S
AVE ME
I have nothing but your generosity to put my hope in-
Nothing. For I stand at Your door holding broken scraps…
and yet you open. Save me from this storm. I am the most
helpless of all your slaves. And I’m lost, wandering in the
middle of a forest trying to find my way. But all the trees
look the same, and each path just leads back to the
beginning. No one finds their way out of this forest—
except whom You save. Save me- For truly, truly I cannot
save myself.

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