The Mountain Is You

HOW TO RESOLVE THIS
Like anything, you need to start slow and adjust yourself over time. To
declutter and reorganize, start with one room, and if that is too much, try
one corner, drawer, or closet. Work on that, and only that, and then
implement a routine that maintains the organization.
From there, start arranging your space so that it works for you, not against
you. Put something soothing on your bedside table like a diffuser, or create
an organized family calendar in the kitchen so appointments and schedules
are visible to others. If you have trouble with the mail being disorganized,
create a spot for it to go when it comes in each day. If you have trouble with
laundry being disorganized, create a system for it and decide on a day or
two that you do the wash, and do it in bulk.
You must slowly let yourself get used to working at a clean desk, and
eventually it will become second nature. You’ll begin to realize that you
also feel so much less stressed and much more in control of your life.
It is very hard to show up as the person you want to be when you are
surrounded by an environment that makes you feel like a person you aren’t.
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AT TA C H M E N T T O W H AT Y O U
D O N ’ T R E A L LY WA N T
Sometimes, your dreams for your life are adopted from other people’s
preferences. In other cases, you determine what you want and then you
outgrow your old ambitions.

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Sometimes, we fight endlessly to try to force ourselves to want something
that we do not really want, and it always leaves us empty, because it isn’t a
genuine desire. This is different than lacking motivation or experiencing
resistance. Our inability to perform is not based in fear or lack of skill, it is
based in an inherent knowing that this is not what we want for our lives,
and perhaps we’re feeling lost or unable to change our path.
When you find yourself struggling with something, you have to ask
yourself: Do I actually want to do this? Do you want the job, or do you just
like how the title sounds? Are you in love with the person, or do you like
the idea of the relationship? Are you still holding an outdated idea of what
your greatest success will be, and if so, what would it look like to let that
go?
At the end of the day, self-sabotage sometimes functions to show us that we
aren’t quite on the right path yet, and that we need to reevaluate to
determine what would feel best for our lives, even if that means we
disappoint some people or even our younger selves.
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We do not have to live the rest of our lives trying to achieve some measure
of success we thought was ideal when we were too young to understand
who we even were. Our only responsibility is to make decisions for the
person we have become.

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